Deaths in February

This has been a rough year for me. With the death of my mother and brother within two days of each other my world has changed and never again will be the same. For the past 8 years I have provided care for the both of them. My mother suffered with Alzheimer's and my brother was bi-polar. During those years my life seemed to have a purpose I knew what I had to do for them. With their deaths there was a void in my life. I myself suffer from depression, and hit a all time low. On most days it was all I could do to get out of bed. On some days I didn't bother. I know that I could not have prevented their deaths and yet I sometime feel that perhaps if I had done just a little more things would have been better.